Seduction...

Seduction - Usher

Ive been loving this song for quite sometime now, the whole premise the song, the simpe yet potent production, the way it was sung and the oh so sexual lyrics, this is in all honesty, a true, bonafide Usher hit along the lines of "Nice N Slow".......



The video kinda brings this song the whole another level though, and it is quite rare that a song of this nature has a video that kinda outshines the song itself, but im quite sure this is one those rare moments i guess....

This song hits me somehow, its not like im livin the usher lifestyle of chicks, cash, fame, fast cars and then more chicks(im no way close sadly!). The life i am leading though in terms of relationships are of the same premise though, my love life the past few mths has been in many ways, non-comittal, lust-driven, usually on a short term basis and mostly ill fated. The scary thing is im actually liking it....

Maybe liking isnt the right word or term to explain this, but i am in many ways very used to how life has been, and somehow its been ironically, in terms of emotions, a very stable journey. Being detached from emotions somehow has eradicated the highs n lows of my life. It hasnt been boring, its been very exciting in fact, but its jus that i dun feel for or view emotional attachments like before...

Here lies my dillemma though, is this right position for me to be in at this point of time? Its sounds good too many that ive shared this too, but it jus doesnt feel right, cos somehow i have the endgame in mind. The wifey, the children, the house, the car, the Disneyland holidays, bla bla bla...

I want that.... but i dun want the emotional baggage that comes with it.... i want the companionship... but i dun want the drama that comes with it...... and utimately i want the highs.... but im not willin to live with the lows.....

And as sefish as this may sound... i guess i jus want to be loved....without having to love......

hmmm....

Is that possible?

Ony time will tell..........